Week 2. I am Weak.

194.4

Isn't this supposed to be a weight LOSS blog? It's time to get real with myself. I have been wallowing in my depression and not getting real. And here I am, about to hit 200. I am 5'4.5!!! This is obese. I can't fit in my clothes. It's time to make a change. Maybe this is my rock bottom?
I sure hope so.
Last night, laying in bed, I realized my hips hurt.... again. Weight gain can do that to ya. That, and having impossibly tight muscles.
Stress, weight gain, being out of shape... all this is causing my muscles to be tight, and physically causing me pain.

So how do we loosen ourselves, loosen our muscles? Yoga.
Have I ever done yoga? Absolutely not.

The internet is a wonderful thing. Youtube can open an entire world of possibilities. Including beginners yoga. This means, you can do your yoga in your living room! Without all those judging eyes of people who can actually touch their toes. Maybe I'll be one of those people one day...

Until then, I think yoga is a good place to start alongside cardio.
I'm a morning person (I know, screw me, right?) So I'm thinking of waking up early in the morning, and doing yoga without my kids driving me nuts. Have a little "me" time each day. That will help the stress, too. 

I found this youtube video I'm going to start with :

She suggests doing this every day for a week, and deciding whether to take it the next step or not, so that's what I'll do. I'll check in next week... and I'm going to try to stop shoving my face with food to escape my problems. I'll have more luck with the yoga :/

Week 1. Not as planned.

192.2.

That hurts to type. I almost aaalllllmost either didn't blog this week, or erased last week and started over.
But then it wouldn't be honest fitness, would it?

Sometimes, you have an emotional week, and binging is the only way to make you feel better. Sometimes, a family member has a birthday and you pig out at the party. Sometimes, you're working on weaning your child, so all the calories burned while breastfeeding are no longer part of your day.
This week, it was all of the above.

On a positive note, yesterday I went to the gym for the first time in 2.5 years. That.... was embarrassing. I went with my husband (who is a gymrat), though we went in separate rooms. I decided on the elliptical interval training with arm blasters.
I think it was like 30 seconds of sprinting, 30 seconds of walking. The arm blasters was for 10 seconds during the walking, where the arm tension goes way up and you have to push and pull pretty hard.
I went a whopping 20 minutes before I felt like I was going to be sick and had to quit.

It was defeating to go in after everyone there, and leave first. But I have to start somewhere, no?
Possibly going to zumba tonight. Also, Gotta stop pigging out all the time. sheesh.

The Stomach Bug

Ask me how fair it is that the day I have decided to start working out is the day I am cursed with a horrible stomach bug that has me stuck on the couch and awake all night?

Because my answer is not fair. Not fair at all.

Alas, I went ahead and weighed in today, I won't do measurements because it hurts to stand.

191 even -_- That is no good, but a valid starting point. That's a BMI of 31.8 which definitely puts me in the Obese category. 

Perhaps my first real goal should be to get out of that category? But no, I'll stick to my original goals, which is every --0. So, 190 is my first goal. There should be NO problem hitting that by next week. That would be a nice way to start this journey. 

Probably won't be working out today or until this bug goes away, but there should be more to do next week!

Until then..